In case any of you were wondering, I've been away again. My mother is 80 and struggling with aging. Recently she found out she had kidney cancer. And they had to take out the kidney. But her prognosis is good. For it wasn't the kind of cancer that attaches to the vascular system. The cancer was instead localized within the tissue of the kidney. So she is fortunate to not have to do chemo or radiation, like most diagnosed with cancer. In fact she has now dealt with not only kidney cancer, but lung cancer and bladder cancer. Still she has never had to have chemo or radiation. The surgeries were always enough. And the surgeon says she's remarkable for how healthy she is at 80. She really looks closer to 70. And in four weeks from surgery, she is to be up and around and doing all the bridge-playing she wants. And yet, she is depressed. Really depressed. She isn't eating, or doing her exercises. She is just sitting in her chair, calling herself lazy. (I've never known my mother to be lazy in my life. In fact, more like hyperactive would be the more accurate label.) She told her physical therapist to stop coming. She tried to tell the nurse to stop coming, and luckily the nurse had the great sense to say no. Mom says she can't discipline her thinking. She doesn't understand what I'm talking about. Mom has always been an anxious thinker, thinking of all the bad things that might or could happen. Now, she is thinking of all she has lost in her body, and in her health. And with her friends, and her family. And of all she is going to lose inevitably soon, like my father who is now 90 years old. Despite the evidence that my father looks 70, and is in amazing shape for his age. Depression weighs us down. We will get depressed when we succumb to looking at our losses instead of our wins. All or nothing, and catastrophic thinking soon leads us into feeling powerless and hopeless. We begin to despair. The next post will be two journal entries from a client who wanted to share how she is lifting herself out of the despair, and the negative spiral that comes from all or nothing and catastrophic thinking.
Today we celebrate the risen Lord! Christ Jesus arose through the power of Life, after being crucified upon a cross and submitting Himself to death of the physical body. In doing so, He taught us that our life and consciousness have their source beyond, not in, the physical body. And yet like the apostle Thomas, look how many of us who proclaim ourselves to be Christian still doubt the fact that our real life is eternal. We question whether there really is life after death. We ask for proof of heaven. Like Judas Iscariot, we betray our faith.....daily. We cling to our health and body. We cease to fully live because we are so preoccupied with not dying. And we are so worried about our reputations with those around us, that we fail to live the message in which we assert our belief. The Christ of Love asks that we risk losing this physical life so that we may find and live our true Life, which for us is Love. The testimonies of Luke, Matthew, Mark and John all bear witness to this teaching. In the English translation of the Aramaic Peshitta original New Testament, Luke 9:24 tells us "Whoever wills that his soul will be saved, destroys it. But whoever will give up his soul for My sake, this one saves it." In Luke 17:33 it is written "Whoever chooses to save his life, shall lose it, and whoever will lose his life shall find it." We are usually so focused on equating life with the physical body that we lose the deeper significance of this teaching. Our thinking is upside down or the reverse of what is really true. Life is not in the physical. So to preserve the physical is to deny the experience of the life that is the real, the eternal, the everlasting. Those of us who risk our lives to live the message of love, to teach that the source of our life and soul consciousness is outside the body, to bear witness to the higher planes of consciousness that are transpersonal or "heavenly"...we shall, like Christ, arise "into the heavens". With Him, we then live from the plane of consciousness that is Love. Not in some future time, but immediately, in that very moment. In that moment we rise and experience the Source of Life beyond our physical existence. In that moment we experience oneness with Love. And from that moment on, we are asked to bring the Kingdom of Heaven, the knowledge of the plane of Love and Source of our life, to this plane the physical. From that moment, we are asked to illuminate the darkness with the light of our love, and carry Life everlasting down into this physical earthen realm.
On Good Friday, we remember Jesus' sacrifice, dying on the cross so that our consciousness might be raised with His. For me, this is the holiest of days, along with Easter Sunday. I would probably describe its significance in this way: The soul (that sphere or structure of consciousness that resides beyond or without the body, but then anchors to the body through heart and brain) that incarnated as Jesus was the highest consciousness soul to incarnate to that day (and still). He came to demonstrate unconditional love, to show mercy and forgiveness, to teach believing in a world that we can't see but exists nonetheless, to prove it by raising the dead with a word or touch, to model for us what it is like to turn the other cheek preferably, or at least to limit punishments to an eye for an eye rather than death for eye....all to a world that had become so violent. He was willing to say what He had to say, regardless that the religious men of that time would declare Him to be speaking blasphemy and demand that He be condemned to death. The day He died is remembered on Good Friday. The day He arose from the dead is celebrated on Easter Sunday. But I believe He allowed the body to die and to be killed because He knew death to be an illusion of this material plane or world. He allowed the body to be entombed 3 days for reasons quite esoteric. He arose 3 days later to prove life everlasting, life eternal, consciousness beyond the material body. Many of us believe that Christ Consciousness is a high plane of consciousness beyond the material, the Kingdom of Heaven referred to in the Bible. We believe that Jesus came to show us what it is to embody the energy of Christ, the Son of the Holy Trinity, the principle and plane of unconditional and divine Love that is the force of attraction, the soul within all souls, the Oversoul. It is Jesus that first showed us what it is like to bring Christ or Love Consciousness into human awareness and to live from that plane or sphere of consciousness. To be born again, is to be raised up into Christ consciousness. On this day, let us remember what Christ Jesus came to teach us, that we are Love, that we are to embody Love, and that those who give up the body to die so that Love may live, shall know everlasting Life. Faith shall be rewarded with the knowledge of Heaven, the Kingdom of God.